I have days where I feel like a really awful person – I feel like I have this nasty streak that I just can’t seem to shake no matter how much I attempt to better myself, and I struggle with the way I behave sometimes.
But then other days, more confident days, I can justify it to myself easily – I can say that yes, occasionally I do things that may be deemed out of order, however, people drive me to it. When it comes down to it, they are their own worst enemies. I have nothing to do with it, my actions are insignificant, and do not matter. I cannot affect anyone unless they let me.
‘They cause their own pain.’
I will admit, my moral code isn’t entirely in line with what most people think is an acceptable way to behave. But I believe in it, and I live my life by it, and 95% of the time I get on just fine, as do those around me. Whose business is it but mine, what I need to do to move through the world and to navigate my personal relationships?
There have been times when I have been wrong, and I have admitted to it, and I have made it know that my feelings changed about what I did, and I have moved on. And if justified, I will always admit that. But I have no reason to dislike myself, or to be sorry.
So I won’t apologize, not for this.
Your an awesome person talia. No one is perfect and people could do so much worse. You need to stand up for yourself and say yeah, im doing it, it isnt hurting anyone and its none of your business anyway. Stand up to those that get in your face about what doesnt concern them. You know who your friends are xxx
I needed this reminder, thank you. I believe in what I’m doing, I never do anything unless I know it’s right for me, but I guess I find it harder these days when that opinion conflicts with someone else’s interests. I’ve never really been in that situation before I guess <3 Gah I love you, I’m sending a bot back to uni in your place and you’re staying here with me lol! <3 xxx